I am getting impatient now. I'm counting down the days until the 12 week scan. I want to have the all clear to tell the world, to tell work, to focus properly on the months ahead. Maybe then it will feel more real and we'll start to plan for December. We've not really talked about it properly. We don't really know where you'll go, where your things will go, where our relatives will go.We don't even know if I'll be able to manage the stairs into the flat. But do you know what the funny thing is? We don't even mind that much. As long as you are healthy, as long as we're all happy, then we'll just muddle through.